Guilty and bad. This is how I feel about people, friends that I had. Particularly high school. And then also acquaintances that I knew. It is easy to talk and get connected with people. But I’ve always struggled with keeping friendships. I don’t know how.
And maybe you say, well, not everyone has friends. And some are only there for a season. And that does hold truth. But, I don’t feel it normal with me. Since high school, or even Middle School, ya know. That’s when we we’re supposed to developed the long-term friendships. Create the memories. Like since you were kids, and you played in the yard. Or went to each other’s houses.
So yes, ultimately, I want to make amends. It’s time!
Again, somehow, when I get acquainted with humans. Somewhere along the way. Whether a short time, or as time progresses, I say something wrong to offend them. Or even worse. My actions speak for themselves. And before I know it, they’re gone. Or they avoid me.
Perhaps it is because I’m different. Because, I normally don’t have a filter. But since then….I’ve regulated that part of me. So, I’ve had practice, and learning to speak before I act. I’m getting better. Some people just don’t talk to me. And I don’t always initiate conversation. But, on the flip side, I do initiate. And when I do, I fall short of holding the natter.
With all of that said. I’m looking for ways that I may find and connect with them confidentially. Yes, I know there’s social media. But I would have to DM certain people and hopefully they can connect me with former homies.
My hope is to take accountability to right my wrongs and no reciprocation needed. I mean that’s the whole point of making amends. So, how am I supposed to DM on Facebook(FB)? Hmmm. I am not a fan of the platform. Sorry, but I’m just not. But…….in the spirit of enlightenment, I’m planning to reach out setting my feelings aside.
Alright, so there’s that. Wish me luck and good vibes.
Until I return
Pearl
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